The uncertainty about next year is making me slightly ill. I was hoping to know by now if I'll be taking a research year or going on to 4th year, but alas, nope. Having not been offered a fellowship in the first round of selections, I get to keep waiting until all the spots are officially filled up. Who knows how long this whole process will last... It is so much worse than sitting by the phone for a date to call!
My peers are fervently filling out VSAS (visiting student application service) applications for audition rotations. Rumor has it that spots fill up super fast and one must be very strategic about these things. I haven't opened the email sent from my dean about registering for VSAS. I have yet to figure out where I'd even want to do an audition rotation!
To make matters worse: my experience speaking at the conference of Friday, seeing where the 4th years matched, and a conversation between ob-headed peers and an OBGYN attending we greatly respect have me wondering if I should go into peds instead. I LOVE obgyn. I love everything about it and like what my life could look like. I can do perinatal care, high risk OB, adolescent health, trans reproductive health, provide abortions, surgery, and the list goes on and on... But a lot of obgyn programs are malignant, conservative, and have seemingly unhappy residents. I also worry that the all female environment will bring out the competitiveness in me.
I like peds a lot. I can still do adolescent reproductive health, medical education, trans health, and public health based work. I can maybe, probably, also provide abortions. The pediatric community is all so happy, nice, and welcoming. If I'm going to have my own family, peds will allow for a better balanced life. Plus, I have many a connection that will help me get into a good peds residency.
Taking a year off would slow down the process a bit, but it will also slow down the process a bit. Translation: I'll buy myself a little more time before making a decision. I'll make more noteworthy connections in the obgyn world that should help me for residency. However, I'll be 30 when I graduate medical school!!! Yes, yes, I know that age is only a number. But 30 is a really big number. It'll also mean that I'll spend the next 2 years nomadicly as I move for the research year and then travel all around for 4th year.
Anyone have a crystal ball?