dream versus reality

Last night I had my first vivid dream about this whole residency process.  I was offered an interview off of the wait list for tomorrow (for a city I happen to be) and then was offered 2 other interviews.  It was such a lovely dream! 

And then I woke up... and so far, today has brought none of those things.  Finally starting to give up the last glimpse of hope that a spot will open up for tomorrow.  Boo.

The most repetitive lesson of medical school

1. If it doesn't make sense, or you don't know how to do it, fake it 
2. Just keep faking it and moving forward
3. If you fake it long enough, it will eventually make sense / you'll figure it out
4. As soon as it makes sense it will be time to move on to the next thing that doesn't yet make sense*
5. Repeat

It amazes me how many times this cycle has repeated itself during my medical school experience.  And yet, it still continues to repeat. 

*Sometimes, you actually have to move on before you realize it makes sense, but then you move on and that last thing just "clicks".  Slightly out of order but the process still holds true.

11.14.13

41,975 blood tests
6,570 injections
1,551 pump site changes
92 endocrinologist appointments
26 thorough eye exams
23 years of living with type 1 diabetes

Today is world diabetes day.  I wouldn't be who I am without diabetes, and for that I am thankful.  But I wouldn't wish it on anyone.   With the newest research coming out, I'm finally letting myself believe that there may be a cure in my lifetime.  I'm excited to see how this research evolves.

MS4 pickup lines

Said to me tonight (in a supportive, platonic, way): "You would be at the top of my interview list if i were a PD!"  Which got me thinking about what other fun pickup lines might exist around residency applications and being a MS4. 

Maybe my mind is just in a really convoluted place. Why not have fun with it though?  What ideas do you have for MS4 inspired pickup line, dear reader?

November is starting off on a bad foot

I just got a rejection for one of my top programs.  Far from my first rejection, but this is the first rejection that I'm really really upset about.  Seriously worried that I don't have enough interviews to match, especially enough interviews outside of the South. Hopefully the month can only improve from here?

Also, being on a rotation where I'm supposed to be self motivated and self-paced is turning out pretty poorly.  Week 1 has mostly been made up of sitting on the couch, watching TV, and taking naps.  It's funny how much I get accomplished when I am busy and how little I do when I'm not.